Mundane Monday!
Just another Mundane Monday! ( Who’s just sung that using the Bangles tune?)
Aged 15 was the first time I’d heard a negative comment regarding my weight! ( Fiona let it go for goodness sake ) Trying on a bridesmaid dress for my sisters wedding and the owner of the shop said “she’ll never look nice in a dress , she’s too big” thanks for that! . I really wasn’t but that was the beginning of a never ending battle and here I am aged 52 starting another Monday of wanting to make changes to my health , but have that feeling of doubt because I do this every week and have done for most of my life, but also that feeling of hope that this is it..
So for the last 37 years I’ve fought my weight. Every magazine growing up that had that quick fix 7 day diet, Bikini diet, Grapefruit diet, Cabbage soup, 28 Hip and Thigh diet, Weight Watchers, Slim fast , bulimia, counselling , you name it. I tried it! 2001 I found slimming world. I lost nearly 2 stone and then I became a Slimming World consultant because I thought that if I knew everything, it would be easy and I’d have cracked it . It certainly wasn’t easy and I never cracked it. During the 17 years I worked for them I lost weight and just lurved the before and after pictures. Until that after picture became my before picture again and again. I’ve lost count of how many times I lost weight and gained it again.
In 2019 I decided to train as a personal trainer purely for my own benefit because I couldn’t afford one anymore and thought it would be easy and if I knew how to exercise and plan my gym sessions then I could achieve my dream of being fit and healthy. It was a really challenging course and I struggled but I learnt a lot about nutrition during the course and made the decision to leave Slimming World.
Did I train daily , weekly, lose weight and become that fit person I so wanted to be?
Nope! My weight has stayed the same for over 2 years and every Monday I get on the scales, praying for a miracle but knowing I haven’t made the changes I need to. I need motivation and support, a chef , personal trainer and to retire , then I may have a chance but motivation comes from within, and a chef, personal trainer and retirement are not an option ! Not long after having gained my Level 2 Gym Instructor and Level 3 Personal training qualification in 2021 and being persuaded ( I’m easily led) by some of the people that became friends during my Slimming World days I started teaching a Core and Balance class and in May 2021 Wellness with Fi was boorn! ( I know it’s born! but couldn’t help the play on words, Boorn is my surname if you don’t know me) . I now teach Barre with Fi 3 times a week and the Core and Balance class has become Flex with Fi which I teach once a week. I recently gained my Level 3 Exercise referral instructor qualification ( just waiting for the certificate). I find it incredibly sad that so many of us chose to continue to eat and drink what we like and how it’s even funny or even something we are proud of when we’ve drunk too much and can’t remember. I heard something on the radio and it really struck a cord with me. LBC was having a discussion on dementia and a lady said “ that when she drunk too much, she couldn’t remember “ (Oh, how many times have I done that?) She mentioned that it was like losing part of her memory as those with dementia do and why would we want to poison ourselves? We just don’t realise until it’s too late the impact our lifestyle has on our health and how many years we waste by these choices we continue to make. Please don’t think I’m judging anyone , I can’t. I’ve spent my whole life eating and drinking and that’s why I’ve ended up where I am.
And here I am again, on another Mundane Monday facing the scales and knowing I have to lose 42 pounds .Why 42? because I am 42 pounds heavier than my sister and that actually disgusts me. Let alone my health. I have an underachieve thyroid , Polycystic Ovarian Cyst Syndrome, I’m obese ( I always think that sounds like I’m a beast ) I have high cholesterol, pre-diabetic and I have Osteoarthritis in my knees and feet and have a lot of pain. This is not how I want the next chapter of my life to be. So I’m blogging my journey and if you’ve read this far and aren’t asleep or you may even relate to what I’ve said, or you’ve overcome this never-ending battle and want to join me on my journey of making Mondays Motivational instead of Mundane then jump on board!!